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Test Results

It happened.

 

I have definitive test results indicating that I have Lyme and Co.

 

In addition to Borrelia Burgdoferi (the spirochete that causes Lyme), I also tested positive for Babesia (a Malaria-like parasite), Bartonella (Cat Scratch Fever), and Ehrlichia. I won’t have any other information until my next appointment, but for now, simply knowing that the test came back positive is enough.

 

I am overcome with emotion. Where do I begin?

 

I am relieved to know that it was not all in my head. I wasn’t making this up. And to the physician who referred me to a psychologist at the very beginning of this journey…Poo on you! To the doctors who ignored the random, seemingly unrelated symptoms I brought to their attention that didn’t quite line up with what they wanted to treat me for…Poo on you too!

 

I am grieving, because I know my life may never be the same. Treating Chronic Lyme and Co. is a long, arduous journey. There is debate over whether or not the pathogens ever leave your system completely. My understanding is that the best they can do is beat the disease into remission and strengthen your immune system enough to where it can keep the pathogens in check on its own. Because of this, stress management and healthy lifestyle choices will be key for the remainder of my life.

 

I am scared, because I know that Lyme and Co. is serious. I know that it is probable that I will get much, much sicker before I ever see a glimpse of “better.” I see it all the time on social media. I am aware of what life is like for my fellow Lymies as they go through their own treatment, and it scares the daylights out of me.

 

I am eager to begin treatment and get the ball rolling. The past two years have been one big waiting game, and I’m ready to leave that part of the journey behind and to move forward!

 

I am hopeful that, despite the fact that this is a hard road to walk, I will achieve remission and I will be able to live an active and healthy life once again. I’m willing to take the hard steps that I need to in order to make a full recovery and pick up living my life where I left off.

 

And I am working really hard to be at peace with my situation. John 16:33 reminds us that we can have peace, even when it feels impossible. It says that we will have trouble in this world (can I get an AMEN?), but to take heart, be encouraged, have hope, because our Savior has overcome the world. Lyme and Co. is tough, but my Jesus is tougher.

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6 thoughts on “Test Results

  1. Glad that you know what it is and can start attacking this! We are all in your corner for support, venting, crying, and uplifting talks at any time. Love you!!

  2. Well, you’re already doing everything you can to eat and live healthy. Try not to let this steal your joy. God has an answer for your disease, and you give *all* your cares to Him. I believe you’ve got the strength to get on top of this problem and win over it, put it under your feet. It’s only going to make you stronger, healthier and more determined and even able to help others. Just like you now know for sure that previous professionals were wrong, know that you will regain your strength and live a normal and healthy lifestyle like before. It absolutely happens and you’re one of the people it’s going to happen to. You’re an overcomer.

  3. Wow…while I truly believe that God has the answers, sometimes its hard to understand the what and whys that surround those answers. My prayers for a complete recovery. Its been over a year since I completed treatment for Lyme. I was totally naïve or maybe stupidly in denial two years ago, as I knew that I had had a reaction to a Lyme carrying tick. That being said, over nearly 60 years of life I have had many tick encounters while enjoying the outside. Yes I stayed in denial until the disease took control. Fortunately after 4 months of treatment, and now over a year after ending treatment and many follow-up blood tests I feel pretty good. God is good.

    1. Wow, it’s always really encouraging to hear from someone who’s been exactly where I am now and come out on the other side of treatment feeling alright! I know I’ve had multiple tick encounters too…My LLMD thinks it’s been in my system for a good long time now. I’m glad to hear that your treatment worked for you, and I’m hopeful that that’ll be the case for me as well! I appreciate your prayers! God is indeed good!

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