I have definitive test results indicating that I have Lyme and Co.
In addition to Borrelia Burgdoferi (the spirochete that causes Lyme), I also tested positive for Babesia (a Malaria-like parasite), Bartonella (Cat Scratch Fever), and Ehrlichia. I won’t have any other information until my next appointment, but for now, simply knowing that the test came back positive is enough.
I am overcome with emotion. Where do I begin?
I am relieved to know that it was not all in my head. I wasn’t making this up. And to the physician who referred me to a psychologist at the very beginning of this journey…Poo on you! To the doctors who ignored the random, seemingly unrelated symptoms I brought to their attention that didn’t quite line up with what they wanted to treat me for…Poo on you too!
I am grieving, because I know my life may never be the same. Treating Chronic Lyme and Co. is a long, arduous journey. There is debate over whether or not the pathogens ever leave your system completely. My understanding is that the best they can do is beat the disease into remission and strengthen your immune system enough to where it can keep the pathogens in check on its own. Because of this, stress management and healthy lifestyle choices will be key for the remainder of my life.
I am scared, because I know that Lyme and Co. is serious. I know that it is probable that I will get much, much sicker before I ever see a glimpse of “better.” I see it all the time on social media. I am aware of what life is like for my fellow Lymies as they go through their own treatment, and it scares the daylights out of me.
I am eager to begin treatment and get the ball rolling. The past two years have been one big waiting game, and I’m ready to leave that part of the journey behind and to move forward!
I am hopeful that, despite the fact that this is a hard road to walk, I will achieve remission and I will be able to live an active and healthy life once again. I’m willing to take the hard steps that I need to in order to make a full recovery and pick up living my life where I left off.
And I am working really hard to be at peace with my situation. John 16:33 reminds us that we can have peace, even when it feels impossible. It says that we will have trouble in this world (can I get an AMEN?), but to take heart, be encouraged, have hope, because our Savior has overcome the world. Lyme and Co. is tough, but my Jesus is tougher.
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